https://patreon.com/EndoMusic Lyrics: before you leave could you forget everything we had and leave me here to sulk and be sad ? when you leave could you pack up everything you gave me? leave me to be deaf and lonely take my heart even though you won't hold it dear take my life Just make me disappear and I can't sleep with all these thoughts about you you'll sleep soundly knowing I can't push through you'll not hear from me again before I grieve could you forget that I'm going mad? let me fade, forget all of the bad moments shared and although you might hate me, dear Don't look back you've got nothing more to fear But I can't sleep with all these thoughts about you you'll sleep soundly knowing I can't have you you'll not hear from me again ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ypFOtZV_Q6U

https://Patreon.com/EndoMusic LYRICS: stay or leave but I'll always make it so complicated inextricable thoughts entangled by my own obsessive mind but I don't believe that I could make you happy unless I become someone else so what's the point in that? fuck... and I don't believe I'm all that crafty to transmute myself so what the fuck is the point in that? Well I'll tear myself apart and pretend that I'll be done convoluting all these thoughts till I believe that you're the only one honesty is only sometimes the best policy when I'm not sure if I'm even honest with myself ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4jnIQcFeUXk

On August 18th I was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes at 25 years old. This is something that runs in my family and was exacerbated by my unhealthy lifestyle. I have found this diagnosis extremely stressful and depressing. Apart from this, I have been formally diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder which is comorbid with depression, multiple pain disorders, and a tic disorder. I’m not sure why I have been given these things but they have prevented me from living for 4 years straight now. Unable to work because of the pain, unable to get off of disability benefits because medication is extremely expensive. These past few years have broken me down to nothing and with this new diagnosis, I am not sure what to do anymore. The one thing I know is that I need help. I can’t do this alone. I want my life to be one of success and happiness but I am barely hanging on at this point. I want to heal myself and become the person I know I can be but I can’t do it without help which is why I’ve started a gofundme to support the things I need to do to get on track and solve these problems. I am sick of being trapped in a failing body and I must heal, I must do what is necessary to continue living, I am tired of suffering Goals: Reverse Diabetes type 2 through nutrition, supplements and exercise. Nutrition and Supplements can be very expensive and while exercise is free, a gym membership or personal trainer would definitely help this process Mental health: I would like to bring my mental health back to a point of balance. I have been spiraling and sitting in a dirty room for too long. It will likely require a lot of therapy and some changes in medications to get me to where I need to be. Fixing my teeth: The root of a few of my pain issues are my teeth, I have too many teeth, they are crowded and I have what is called a deep bite. This would likely be one of the most expensive and arduous tasks on this list Chiropractic care: The rest of my pain issues lie in my neck and spine. Paying it forward: I know there are many people like me who are facing issues that they cannot do alone and once I am in a place where I am able to help, I will. Excesses of the money from this project will be used to help those in need who have been brought down by things out of their control. ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4zoRfXvQbOs

Hey guys, Endo here. Here is my acoustic take on The District Sleeps Alone Tonight by The Postal Service. Sorry for checking my messages in the middle of the song. https://allmylinks.com/endo ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b8zeCfAR_70