When I reflect on my early life, I don’t remember a time when I wasn’t attracted to women. I was born in Russia in 1997 and adopted into an American family in 1998. As a child, I was always drawn to the women around me--teachers, friends, even strangers. Then, when I was 10, a friend introduced me to porn for the first time. Already aware of my same-sex attraction, pornography only fueled my lustful desires, leaving me stuck in a trap of guilt, shame, and confusion for the next 13 years. I was completely lost, lonely, and scared. But I hid behind a mask. “Fake it ‘til you make it” was my motto. Even though I grew up in a Christian home and attended church, I didn’t take Jesus seriously. I went along mostly for the social aspects of the church; it was just another place to meet girls. But a battle was constantly raging inside my head. The inner turmoil and the unhealthy, codependent relationships I cycled in and out of left me feeling bound, oppressed, and depressed. I hated who I was and who I was becoming, and I hated God. I believed that he had made me this way, so I didn’t understand why he would let me face such an intense struggle. Life was so exhausting that at one point I even became suicidal. Tired of living a double life. My Facebook: Mariah Barton My Instagram: themkbarton Support The Channel Help Spread The Message Of Love, God Loves you and wants to get to know you. DONATE ➜ PayPal: https://www.paypal.com/donate/?business=9VPD9TPUF95VE&item_name=Ministry¤cy_code=USD DONATE ➜ Zelle: ritzcummings@yahoo.com DONATE ➜ Money Gram: RitzC1964@gmail.com DONATE ➜ FB: Open the conversation containing the money sign Click Add Debit Card in the conversation and add your debit card to send Donation. Become a Patreon➜https://www.patreon.com/TransitionRadioShow For as little as 5 dollars a month you can support the show Read my New Book Exclusively available as a PDF if you sign up for a monthly membership on Patreon. Shop on my Online Store https://shop.spreadshirt.com/transitionradioshow-shop/all Purchase our Plant-based Cookbook http://www.blurb.com/bookstore/invited/5564347/e50ea52ad2dba1c99963d6d9017707c54d904e1c Email me with questions, show requests, prayers, or to be on the show Email: transitionradioshow@gmail.com LBRY.TV: https://lbry.tv/@TransitionRadioshow:6 Twitch:https://open.lbry.com/@TransitionRadioshow:6 Subscribe and hit the notification button to not miss a show. You can chat, ask questions, and be part of the show. Shows are live on Tuesday & Thursday at 4:30 PM Arizona Time. The Show that dares discuss real issues with real solutions. Maritza Cummings is your Host/Show Coordinator, a follower of YESHUA/JESUS CHRIST, and a detransitioner. Your Life Matters If you are interested in being on ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=chCYShyTRuQ

lyrics: 1/12 3/1 G, 1/ 12... G. 1/12... G. C the years have gone by, nothing left inside no pride can you explain to my heart, that you won't D. G be home tonight. C D G But if you kiss me, the way you did before, all of this hurt and pain might just walk out the door, I will understand if you don’t feel the same, because of the snow and the rain. Our love was like the weather ever changing never long, one minute you loved me the next you hate me, our love is like a thunderstorm. I close my eyes, I imagine us deep in the night, a tender look from your eyes quickly turns into a fight. Chorus: Can we confess that our love was such a mess, but I will always remember the best, the sweet moments we had in our bed. Support The Channel: Hit The Applause Button, or Superchat while Chatting Help Spread The Message Of Love, God Loves you and wants to get to know you. DONATE ➜ PayPal: https://www.paypal.com/donate/?business=9VPD9TPUF95VE&item_name=Ministry¤cy_code=USD DONATE ➜ Zelle: ritzcummings@yahoo.com DONATE ➜ Money Gram: RitzC1964@gmail.com DONATE ➜ FB: Open the conversation containing the money sign Click Add Debit Card in the conversation and add your debit card to send Donation. Become a Patreon➜https://www.patreon.com/TransitionRadioShow For as little as 5 dollars a month you can support the show Read my New Book Exclusively available as a PDF if you sign up for a monthly membership on Patreon. Shop on my Online Store https://shop.spreadshirt.com/transitionradioshow-shop/all Purchase our Plant-based Cookbook http://www.blurb.com/bookstore/invited/5564347/e50ea52ad2dba1c99963d6d9017707c54d904e1c Email me with questions, show requests, prayers, or to be on the show Email: transitionradioshow@gmail.com LBRY.TV: https://lbry.tv/@TransitionRadioshow:6 Twitch:https://open.lbry.com/@TransitionRadioshow:6 Subscribe and hit the notification button to not miss a show. You can chat, ask questions, and be part of the show. Shows are live on Tuesday & Thursday at 4:30 PM Arizona Time. The Show that dares discuss real issues with real solutions. Maritza Cummings is your Host/Show Coordinator, a follower of YESHUA/JESUS CHRIST, and a detransitioner. Your Life Matters If you are interested in being on the show for a short segment, please send your information to transitionradiowshow@gmail.com Every week I would like to showcase a life that has made a difference in the world or a story that will move you beyond the norm. Transitioning To A better Species Support the Show and visit https://transitionradio.blogspot.com/ Any of my opinions or beliefs are mine, ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jJDch4C8wGE