This song is just me expressing my emotions, probably the most personal I've gotten on this channel lol. Lyrics: I feel like I have lost it I don't know if I exist when I wake up I feel like sh*t my heart has taken such a crit every time I'm up in the morning, sleep deprived just wondering where did the time go I used to be happy and now I just stare at a wall and sit 2020 two years ago goin with the flow what happened I don't even know everybody just seems so depressed I keep feelin like I'm the reason I try to speak my mind but I feel so annoying changing subjects so quick is my brain even functioning every day I'm just ignored, do they hate me? blocked and mocked they all hate me no one wants to listen to the loud mouth freak I just wanna die my life's already peaked the only time they talk to me is when I vent I'm not interesting I just hate me I just... Don't know what to do anymore everything just hurts... I wish I could go back to how it used to be but I can't fix anything... everyone wants to act like they give a crap, but 2 seconds later they leave my ass am I not good enough am I okay, all of these issues I can't think straight am I a monster for all of these mistakes, someone please save me I am not okay I want to talk about all of my problems, but being yelled at and hated doesn't fix 'em all of my projects I can't even finish them, distracted depressed can't even end a sent- even the lyrics are going off topic, I'm just a failure why can't I stop it I just wanna feel like I'm fulfilled but everything makes me feel so empty I never mean to hurt the people I love, but I overreact and keep messing up I try to speak my mind but I feel so insulting keep talkin over people is my brain even functioning I feel so alone but I still ignore, they hate me cant fix problems they all hate me no one wants to listen to the loud mouth freak I just wanna die my life's already peaked I don't know what I want do I want to be seen? what is wrong with me I just hate me I feel like I have lost it I don't know if I exist I know it's not my fault but I still feel like sh*t situations just make me feel like a prick even if I change they all hate me I just want to live in peace every day taking my energy I just want to love me ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xnqJUWuRX6c

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