????????? for weekly self-growth videos ?✨ 1:1 Coaching Program - http://areegechaudhary.com/ Support me ? - https://www.buymeacoffee.com/uhreej/ Context: Since I’ve moved back to Toronto from university, I have been trying my absolute best to heal the relationship between my parents and I. Opening up regular communication again, visiting home every couple of weeks - I did the best I could, making sure that I wasn’t over exerting myself. It seemed to be going really well, and I truly did enjoy feeling like I was sort of part of the family again. Last October (2019), my mom came to Garett and I with a proposition - get a nikkah, an Islamic marriage, and you will be fully welcome in the family again. My first reaction to this was “oh yeah, of course, let’s just do it”. I wanted so badly to fix everything that I completely ignored that little nagging voice in the back of my mind telling me that this wasn’t really the solution - it was just a bandaid. Yes, we could easily say a couple of words aloud and get an Islamic marriage, but wouldn’t that open up another form of a double life? Wouldn’t my family then expect Garett and I to publicly label ourselves as Muslims, and express ourselves as such? This was exactly what I didn’t want and I already had spent so much energy escaping from such dishonesty in the past. Despite this, I told my family that we would do it, although I kept procrastinating on taking any actual action. Fast forward to about 2 weeks ago, my mum messages me really angrily about my videos. She’s upset that I used the word abuse, such strong language, in the title of my last story time video to describe my experience growing up in our shared household. I felt very angry in response. What I experienced WAS emotional abuse, no matter how hard it is to hear, and I would not back down on telling my story. I cut communication with her, because I knew that we wouldn't be able to have a constructive conversation while both of us were in such unstable emotional states. A couple of days after receiving those invalidating texts from her, I wrote these letters and processed reality for what it actually is. My parents do not fully accept me for who I am yet, and that is fine, but I do not need to invite their negativity into my life. A few days after that, I called my mom. I was feeling better and felt that maybe there was a chance we could talk it all out and come to a compromise. I laid everything out on the table, and my mum was not happy. Although I am very public about my beliefs, I think my parents were still holding onto the hope that I would come around and accept Islam again. She asked me directly “Are you a Muslim?”. I told her “No”, and she replied something along the ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pbAoDXw5K1s

Hi! This is what I did after that terrible, terrible exam season… Probably not as interesting as my previous vlog, but this is more or less the pace of my usual day to day. Thanks for watching! :) –GOODREADS– Check out what I’m currently reading, what I have read, and the books I highly recommend! + Send me a message about what you’re reading so we can discuss! https://www.goodreads.com/user/show/14886643-areege-chaudhary –SOCIAL MEDIA– Instagram : instagram.com/areege.c/ -MUSIC- Floppy Circus - Be With You https://soundcloud.com/floppycircus ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fxMmvM8DI6w