Intro - the inspiration for going back to this year of dream journals is to see if I can find hints about COVID19, specifically, I'm wondering if I'll find signs that the COVID19 pandemic is not only not a random accident, but that it was planned out months (or longer) in advance. 0:38 First journal in this stack is Jan 21-30 2019 - it details an alleged murder and cover-up that occurred in the 1970s but reading back through it I realize it also details a lot of ongoing relationships and gives information about implants. Maybe some of this is because of the 1970s murder. 4:11 Courtney Love Cobain's role seems to be akin to a sort of a commander or general. I believe she both controls, and is controlled. I believe my aunt Marjorie J Anton of Redmond, Washington controls Courtney and many of my family members including my mother, father, and brother. Marjorie Anton is a retired nurse who worked for Swedish Hospital in Seattle. 11:40 I'm listing some of the relations of my daughter who I think are involved in medical trafficking. This is important because medical trafficking is closely linked with murder. It's likely that one reason so many people are dying is because they are trying to control and to cull witnesses of this crime, something which, if it is not stopped, will go on a very long time as there are many moving parts and many witnesses. 14:00 ceramic hearts on a garland of rough twine 14:54 this is about implanted hearts but because they are on a garland it makes me wonder if there is a link to the name Garland which is linked both to the Redmond Road property and to my aunt Marge in Redmond, Washington. The twine and stringing of the hearts could signify other things, like one tied to another, one following another, strings being pulled, etc. 15:21 possible corona virus links 18:08 "He misses his friend" (crow in parking lot) covert murder, cover ups, retaliatory murders 22:55 maybe implants in the heart are linked to this 1970s murder of a federal investigator 25:17 sense of presence of Eureka Mall, Pierson Building Center - and Brook reminds me of being in Klamath the day Forrest died and of being on the river the day of the 2002 salmon kill I also saw the name "Michael" A voice "so it seems like he's actually giving people DIRT?" 3 graves 31:36 trees on a bluff 32:31 dream vision of heart dream vision "paranoia" connected to sharks 37:53 Cummings Road dump (Freshwater, California) 38:42 link between blood (over heart) on Nirvana Heart Shaped Box video and peanut butter. Link between Cummings Road murders and peanut butter and me. 40:52 "Freemasons running the government on behalf of oligarchs" is the best explanation I can find as to why systems are not operating as I would expect them to operate with regards to my situation. I speak about checks - systems that are supposed to hold each other in check - not working. In fact this group uses the word and concept of "check" more like a "checkerboard" or game board. Language and imagery is used as a form of mind control. 42:00 "I just stare, astounded" double meaning is stare/stair - may be an indication that I'm being kept here in order to help keep corrupt people advancing through this "stair" system 42:50 layers of betrayal 44:40 image of trees cut (for sale?) ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wJHM5TC0g4Q

Walking down the street with a box - sodas inside - keep falling - box is broken - soda water. Maybe other heavy things - a rock - cardboard. Something about a single - it's an Elton John single. And Violent Femmes - like, I have no shoes it seems like when I think of Violent Femmes. It seems like I'm thinking it's Violent Femmes but it's really Elton John. When it is Violent Femmes, it's something I listen to a lot, and someone from the band (G Gano?) hears/sees me - likes it because I listen to this a lot, and because of the visibility (spying) this helps make his music more popular. ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RgHSbGVJXK4

A line made out of small stippling of bruises appeared out of nowhere. ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n0gbE0s1-08

My phone had been cut as I was describing a conflict while trying to schedule a "second opinion" dentist appointent in which they were trying very hard to steer me to a specific dentist - something I've learned is done as part of the control system (arrangements are made ahead of time with doctors and dentists with regards to how they are going to harm and control me, so they want to funnel me in particular ways to whom they've already made these arrangements with). Dream image of blue rose fracturing, like from frequencies. Note: Attacks to Chris and me all night, kept us awake - I saw/felt vibrations - attacked via tooth (crown on tooth 14) and heart implant and Something behind/between something else A face between two objects, scarred, like on chin. Everything in middle is damaged, dangerous. Designs from a dollar bill, moving around. 5:03am Places where I've seen blue dots - on wall next to my bed - on wall beneath baby basket - on cat - on shower - frequently over crown on 14 but also on other side of mouth. 5:16am lots of lightning Erika Schlaeger / George Harrison red, white, blue John Cale / John Cage 6:22am Image of blue rose fracturing, like from frequencies. 10:52 looking at idea of "blue rose" It's probably partly linked to the line from Famous Blue Raincoat "I see you there with a rose in your teeth..." but it's also a central concept - and a fictional covert paranormal program linked to the FBI - in David Lynch's "Twin Peaks" ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HqyTUOgZRB0