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Awareness of the Cube Inside My Head
When I was a boy, probably between the ages of seven and 14, I would sometimes enter a strange mental state. It felt like a state of super-awareness, or being detached from my physical reality. I don’t exactly know why it happened, but the best way I could describe it as a boy was like having “a cube inside my head”.

I would usually be lying down on the sofa at night time, lights out, while watching the TV. Suddenly, all my visual perception would go “flat”. That is, everything around me was no longer 3D, but seemed like it was just on a flat reel going around me. I felt aware that my surroundings were not real. I could still hear sound, but it felt like it was muffled and coming from behind the visual reel.

The most noticeable feeling, however, was the awareness of something in my mind. It’s very hard to describe, but it was something like a wall of force in my head. It seemed to have four sides and made me feel like I was floating in space. I could only describe it to myself as a “cube”. It wasn’t really a cube, but I do not have the vocabulary to describe it accurately. It’s more of a feeling than than some sort of actual object.

Occasionally, to this day, I experience a similar feeling. However, recent occurrences do not feel near as powerful as when I was a boy ...

What Is the Cube?

When I was a boy, I remember thinking that the cube represented my “other life”. Now I don’t know what I exactly meant by that, but to this day, I can only explain it to mean a “previous life”, or an “external life”.

It wasn’t until years later that I was reading a book on reincarnation. I started to think that maybe what I was seeing were figments from a previous life, or possibly I was experiencing my true self. The book also talked about how children have a closer bond to their previous lives than adults do. They described how most children experience these feelings, but as we become adults we learn to ignore them and are taught to write them off as our “imagination” or a “dream”.

I now know what I was experiencing was definitely not a dream, but an awareness of something greater ...

Psychological Explanation

It wasn’t until this morning that I decided to search the Internet for a possible psychological explanation. After a few searches, my strange sensations of unreality sound like a mix of Derealisation and Depersonalisation.

Derealisation is the feeling that the external world somehow seems unreal. Symptoms include the feeling that one’s environment is lacking in spontaneity and depth. It is described as a dissociative symptom, that is, a feeling of being detached from reality. It does not involve a loss of reality as experienced during psychosis.

Depersonalisation is similar to derealisation in that it
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