https://patreon.com/EndoMusic Lyrics: before you leave could you forget everything we had and leave me here to sulk and be sad ? when you leave could you pack up everything you gave me? leave me to be deaf and lonely take my heart even though you won't hold it dear take my life Just make me disappear and I can't sleep with all these thoughts about you you'll sleep soundly knowing I can't push through you'll not hear from me again before I grieve could you forget that I'm going mad? let me fade, forget all of the bad moments shared and although you might hate me, dear Don't look back you've got nothing more to fear But I can't sleep with all these thoughts about you you'll sleep soundly knowing I can't have you you'll not hear from me again ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ypFOtZV_Q6U

https://www.patreon.com/EndoMusic Lyrics: I should go to therapy but I'm tired of waiting for results that I am meant to see is it something with my chemistry or mentally? either way the enemy is me especially when I must take these pills to maintain a muddy facade of sanity I smile and laugh but I am mortified as I become the image of anxiety leading to the point where I am drowning it in hennese, desperately popping xans, combining it with ecstasy when I was young there was a hunch that something's wrong with me but I'm still not sure what's really going on cause when I fall asleep a plague of suffocating viscera invades my dreams I'm so fucking tired of the pain and I'm tired of this song I know there's many others worse off but on this earth I feel I don't belong and I've Lost my mind I won't kill myself but that doesn't mean that I don't want to scared to die but also to live my trembling voice will not disappear Lost my mind scared to die but also to live lost my mind my trembling voice will not disappear x2 ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MGQ5FMWcdrQ

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here is a quick update about my dreadlocks/natural hair 3 days in! next check-in will probably be at one week. ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WLXRgwynoXk