As a filmmaker and story teller I want to be able to tell every damn detail... the stories that make my brother's song, dark night of the soul something full of life altering, threatening, abusive, twisted, painful self induced torment, but it is not mine to relate... because so much of it is deeply interesting, but it is not my right to editorialize on other lives, just my own... It's okay to let the sound and picture invoke whatever a viewer takes away from it, but the stories of our lives are our own. The things he has told me, the brawls, the dark turns and bad choices, would make for a book that many would love to read. Many of us are interested in the type of character that fearlessly challenges every sane choice but most of us know when we push things a bit too far we best stay clear of the edge... But people like my brother and my son Kal who is so much like my brother... even possibly pushing things even further off the charts, one would stand mouth ajar, jaw hitting the floor-- if people knew their stories... I myself have lead a different kind of crazy life... I have not had to be in brutal life and death violent fights, because I sense when to turn left... I can run with the devils and know when those devils are trying to corner me... but not my brother and my son... They seem to allow the cornering and somehow, with all the violence of self preservation, fight their way free... Only to return to that same predicament as if the lesson flew over their heads like a hat blown off a head. The dark night of the soul... that loops in their lives... and for some reason they put these stories on me and I carry the fear and dread for them. As if they want me to chronicle what they seem helpless to say or stop themselves from doing, or to torment me. ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c6mW1npFSNg