Britney Spears - Oh La La (Cover by Tanya Katherine)
Happy Birthday to Britney Spears!
This is the song from "The Smurfs 2". I always really liked this song and it puts me in such an excited and happy mood. This video is filled with more dancing and expression!
All rights go to Britney and Bonnie McKee (I also used to like Bonnie McKee's music a lot).
some of my most embarrassing videos. This was one of the hardest years but I love her.
I look SOOO not like myself in the first clip. It probably had to do with major weight gain from all the stuff going on and made me morph differently. I was not healthy or at peace in my home life. And the last clip is embarrassing. And the second last clip is more embarrassing.
There are better times in the past I will upload, this was just one of the worst ever years of my life. 2010-2011. Like absolute rock bottom.
But 2010 was also the first time I found 'research' and started looking everything up from the mayan calendar to Alice and Wonderland and Disney coding things...and then how they program brains, and simulation theory. YES I first got into that in 2010 and then my computer got a virus and started acting weird so my research stopped and I forgot about the stuff I learned until years later. Also my friends that I told what I learned told me I was really crazy and should stop researching. I didn't get very far but I felt the exact same way I did in 2017 when I did deeper research. It was the very same feeling of shock and relief.
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TNclT-QX2Zo
I finally got a picture with it and during Nuit Blanche October 6, 2018, and a really rough time. I did have a burst of happiness at the time finding the balloon, though.
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7FeezavYy08
This was one of my fave fall bike-riding songs in September - October 2017. I dreamed of a life I couldn't yet imagine, of a love that was all-encompassing and pure. Biking to the gym to bust out a workout and then come home and study more. Knowing that person was out there somewhere and one day soon I'd hopefully find him. This song meant so much to me because of the lyrics. It is also similar to the Tove Lo "Got Love" cover too in the lyrical emulation of that feeling.
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZDi54PBU2wM
I wanted to do this song in July, yet it was filmed in September and ready to be published September 29 2021. This song was playing at a dress store and it sounded so familiar. I looked it up later and saw that it was a song by Julio Iglesias, only to find out that Sting was the original singer/composer.
When I saw Sting's re-occurring name again, I remembered my Mom playing this song around me when I was very little, especially the "on and on" and the "like tears from the.." part. Another synchronicity yet again. My Mom loved Sting and I used to tease her about it when I was a little girl at how passionate she would play his cassette tapes in the car going down the big hill by my old house. Especially in "Desert Rose", hearing the Ancient, Egyptian-influenced instruments and my mind drifting off to a mysterious, far away place...I realized I teased her because I also felt that same passionate way about his music but could not come to terms with it so openly. Mommy was always steps ahead of me with research and truth knowledge, since her career was based on researching in medical. She was the reason I got into it; she started me off with Atlantis and the FreeM*'s, and I like to believe I finished it for her with what I know now...
Listening to the lyrics carefully, "if blood will flow when flesh and steel are one....tomorrow's rain will wash the stains away" I have a person in mind who will like that decode LOL! :) with the three elements.
My opinion is; that the meaning of how fragile those born beneath the "angry star" are...referring not to Cain, but to Abel. You wouldn't think Abel would be angry because Cain is the murderous one, but Abel also is angry because he has nothing in him, perhaps he is angry also for being the weaker brother? Perhaps the anger comes from the void/vacuum of emptiness within him? Thank you to "Teacher" for discovering and teaching us all this. My ears are more awake than last year and the years before, to listen and seek these clues.
Peeking out my window at the sunset, depression looming, seeing the red-orange-pink sky in July, and feeling something horrible pending, I had this song playing in my head. I had no idea that someone close to me actually bent to take the bait, and that deceit was in the air, but my intuition knew and was already very sad about it. Even though I did not know anything bad was happening to a person I loved, I lay on my bed in the dress from that store and lay looking at the pattern and saw images flash in my mind's eye of what I deemed was the worst possible scenario where that person would go behind my back and give in to the world pressure and get it, and later on in August I found out this actually happened. I can't explain how the subtleties showed me that and how finding out later was actually bound to happen and reveal everything.
I grew up loving Spanish/Latin music (age 9 to 11) and this song really reminds me of my past love for Latin culture, Spain, Aztec-influenced things and South America.
Sorry for my weird dancing, I didn't know what to do for the instrumental parts. Still learning on improving my dance.
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=esWl5m-ZKhA
Dance of the Feminine (2015) - Performance Art Piece + Paper
An art performance (video) piece I created for my fourth year class for my undergraduate degree in art school relating to the exploration of the feminine and understanding of the trials, sacrifices and challenges one goes through being born female in this world.
The paper that went with this piece as well as my own commentary is provided at the end of the video (feel free to pause it if needed).
I note how the observer behind the camera acting as “male gaze” on myself as the subject changed the meaning of the piece and was not discussed in the paper and on my part, should have been since it takes a big role in the meaning [insert better word] of the piece.
This class was a healing journey and breath of fresh air compared to thesis and gave me a chance to realize why bad things kept occurring in my life at the time and understanding who I was amongst a cesspool of opposition, (as I stated in the commentary), at the time.
It is interesting that upon submitting this in 2015, and even though the paper was about relinquishing SHAME of the feminine collective to allow it to exist on its own without the condemnation of the world, I held a lot of shame being looked at whilst filming this, wearing what I was wearing in public forest, moving around, SHOWING IT IN CLASS, having enemies in class watching me in such a vulnerable state, and the looming feeling of professors I had recent tensions with being in the surrounding area while presenting such a difficult piece to unveil in SOL POWER in which I had to FIGHT THROUGH in this dance to overcome the shackles of shame, to perform and show this and to stand and wield the power of the sacred feminine to present this piece in totality. ??
The professor in this class was a guiding light and also a great challenge to critique my work as well and she is very appreciated.
This was originally posted on Vimeo back then in March 2015.
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q6TV0Osmau0
From the musical Oliver! and the original version recorded by the 1962 London Studio Cast and Lionel Bart.
This is the first song that was chosen by my singing teacher from my Spring 2005 singing recital.
This was right around the end of Grade 7 and I was twelve, about to turn thirteen.
Sorry (again) for the audio cutting out in this one, as it is typical with the state of these VHS copies.
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4jAdJHhrMlI
Amerie touch jungle dress/top.
If I start doing TikTok videos, I will get kicked off for breaking the rules ? and talking too long.
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yyQ_vOk0quk
This was made in the week of the ice storm in April 2018 and I had an audition to go to. We had to sing all 4 songs chosen for us and this was one of them.
1. Beyonce “Love On Top”
I failed epically and it was really fun to go to and a good learning experience. But also embarrassing in the wrong kind of outfit. I felt so embarrassed since it was supposed to be more jeans and a t-shirt kind of thing. Its crazy to think, looking back on this, how hard I was on myself when all of us girls were beautiful in our own unique way. I compared myself way too much. When I got home I cheered myself up by recording videos for all of these songs to remember all the practicing in the moment and how I pushed myself to try something new and out of my comfort zone.
When I filmed “Love On Top”, out of all four videos, I felt way too precocious wearing just the dress, so I put the cardigan on since I felt this song would be giving off sexual vibes somehow to my youtube viewers? Its crazy how I thought this was “sl^tty” to post when it looks fine and just like I’m having fun, which I am!!! This kind of sexual shaming/brainwashing (that I felt back then) is not healthy and if you look around the world there is so much worse out there. Its the kind of brainwashing where the girl is told to wear a sweater and snow pants to cover up her attraction just in case it garners a glance…or the kind that men are told not to even talk or look towards a woman or they will be ‘yelled at’ by their girlfriends. Think about it! Men used to take their hats off to women and even kiss their hands as greetings in older times…and that would not be considered wrong or overtly sexual, but wearing a dress and feeling excited and happy in Grace is? Nowadays if a man dares look at a woman too long its considered incorrect! All of this goes back to some sort of narcissistic manipulative control over the genders and is NOT natural or healthy. Both genders should be naturally expressive.
I felt like such a ho wearing a knee-length dress and high heels all alone to an audition with 5 guys in a band. But why? What is so criminal about dressing feminine and feeling pretty and happy? It almost is like a crime nowadays to feel naturally inherently masculine or naturally feminine based on our genders. That, and its a crime to also feel or show any kind of Graceful (Christ) attraction or natural excitement towards something! I want to be a voice for the oppressed and not to shame or blame anyone. If this has happened to you, just know I understand too and hopefully this video can free and unite us. I say we should not mute how we feel and we should express ourselves even if that means "the sheep dog will bark at us to get back in our fenced-off pens". Let's be a little naughty (with Grace!) and rebel against these control rules.
I felt so ashamed of sexuality and natural attraction back then, even though there is absolutely nothing wrong with feeling attracted and feeling true love towards a person! Its a beautiful thing that should be expressed more. During filming this, I actually felt so numb. It was 'hard work' to do all these bubbly moves when usually it was easy for me to go crazy jumping and wiggling on camera. I felt like cement was in my veins and I was turning into stone slowly with depression. You can kind of see the heartbreak in my eyes, even though I push through to that narrow path of 5% love that was still there. It took me 3 years to post this trio of songs and I’m ready to rock out with all of you lol!
Dance and express along with me in this bubbly cover, everyone!
Also (I’m being hard on myself again) I know I’ve got a lot of missed/off words, pitchiness, voice cracking and sang this in my head voice. I am not trying to compete with my vocals because I’m not perfect but I did try my best on this and had loads of fun dancing to this exciting song! Which is why I am so ready to post this now.
This was the original audio recording from 2018 that I did before the audition! I just had fun with it and went crazy, which is awesome - you can even hear my noisy heater in the background lol.
Thanks for watching,
Tanya
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=97uQVJUzBd8