Disquietude at Delichio’s For the last month - I have not been able to patronize Delichios - due to the fact that they were doing takeaway only - due to the Lozzington (Lozzington Gockdown). Anyway on Wednesday, the Lozzington was finished - so I was able to proceed to Delichios. There are three main people working there - the Boss - the Cook and the Waitress. I am principally here concerned first of all with the aspect and demeanour of The Boss. Prior to this latest Lozzington - I received always a very warm welcome from all at Delichios - ‘’Hello Uncle! - Usual!?’’ (Egg Bacon Chips 2 x Toast + Cup of Tea). Is the normal salute and clarion that greets me upon my arrival at Delichios. Not now. Not any more. I saw; as I sat waiting for my order, in my usual place - that the Boss had undergone a very marked alteration in his demeanour and his attitude to me. He was cold, and unfamiliar and deliberately so it seemed to me. I wondered if it was some general indisposition broadcast indiscriminately? The man looked glum and unsatisfied at all times during the period of my patronage on that day. I was strongly affected by the difference and novelty in matters and relations and interactions as they proceeded to the terminal of my departure from the establishment that day - and I found subsequently, my thoughts returning to the matter periodically and frequently. I at that stage - meaning after but 1 post Lozzington visit and use of the facility; observed that I do not know the man at all. I know nothing of him. My first thought was that he too knows nothing of me. In that observation, I could not obtain any theoretical grounds for such a dramatic perturbation to our normal relations. I found nothing at first then. Today, Friday, I returned and I experienced the same treatment, aspect and reaction - from the Boss. My powers of perception, observation and inference now amplified and ready to source any data available for analysis. I attended the function with a purpose to investigate matters. At one particular moment, I saw him; he who was formerly so warm and kind seeming, look at me with a definite and extreme horror and revulsion - as if the very awareness of my being was a form of barely tolerable initiation into vile and disgusting realities. I do not exaggerate - this is what I saw. That impression was, in a small way, slightly amusing to behold. I tell You now - incredible as it may seem - that that is what I saw. The waitress and the cook - seemed to me - in their manner to indicate that while they did not share the man’s obvious and acute disgust for me - they were aware of it - and presumably the reason for it too. I will not dwell upon the subtle, skillful and acute intuitive sensitivities I deployed in obtaining that impression. Let it ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DyvRPScZVlk

Taking a shit Taking a Shit is for me a special pleasure. Defecating well I enjoy it. The feeling. The feeling of passing a Turd. It is Exquisite! Propitious Therapeutic Cathartic I mean to say I suggest to you that If you happen to have had a recent or persistently troubling or demoralizing break up with your Sweetheart or are perchance otherwise indisposed by personal pain or discomfort or by some or other existential or ontological uncertainty for example or indeed and including any species of morbid and self interested and regarding angst anxiety self pity or any type of maudlin sentimental snivelling Grief why not take a Shit? you want to do it. Go on admit it! Fortify yourself. You will feel a lot lot better you will be improved and your troubles well; they will evaporate into the Phantasm of Lust that they really are. Go on! contract your Sphincter and thereby evacuate your Rectum Ampulla and Discharge your sweet payload! via your Anal Canal and in all that Exhibit your Fragrance confirm your integrity and your natural Authenticity I exhort you to; drop your Turd lay your Log cut your Brown Study down in uninhibited and open enthusiasm stylishly mend yourself once and for all Have a proper proper good Shit. ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4otRKfiycdI

I must say that today I must say that I felt a tremendous or an abnormal general indiscriminate total and absolute physical attraction to women I have this very day been afflicted with an extraordinary and an acute or a pathological and monomaniacal focus and capitulation of absolute attention onto the bodies the mere physical bodies the flesh and the blood the shapes the dimensions the bone and the breathing meat the supernal exhilarating and transporting transforming and definitive physical forms of beautiful orgasmic ecstatic explosive devastating crying women especially their assholes their mouths and their vaginas their legs their breasts the arms and the hands the stench and the reek the filth the skin the pots and the pans everything the ultimate meaning so to speak yes whatever you say and you know how it goes and no but you will never guess I looked at women today and I wanted to fuck them I wanted to fuck them all one by one and viciously in their mouths in their pussies and in their assholes but when I say women I mean women and no less. ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t_9jJHALhKI

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