I want to follow a balanced diet # Good idea # That is why I am using jammie dodgers the strawberry will do me good # Yes it will Are you going to get a sandwich # Yes I shall have a certain sandwich at a certain time of a certain day chicken tikka # Do you want some mushy peas # No not today # How many Milky Bars do you need now # Two # Are you having a ‘coke zero’? # Yes # The water # Yes # Do you want any custard creams # Actually yes and what about you Are you going to buy a lottery ticket # I must do now that you have reminded me but they don’t sell them here I can get one anywhere it is a unique diary in the history of man a spin of the wheel a trick of the plan All the usual # All the usual # All the usual we don’t say.

I am just now getting a sense of something I mean why would they be hotter (women in the 1980's)? The reason which it is, is that now, in our time, we do not really have women as such. The image or archetype of women as the potential mother and as Goddess of Love, is not possible in our age. The state and the market and the device and the ideas of others, have supplanted, superseded and surpassed women as they were, as potential authentic creators. This is a failure that we must lay at the doorstep of these delinquent and these negligent individual human catastrophes that we persist in calling 'women'. Women are now infinitely mutable. There is no core, no functional archetype, no centre, no origin - for the fatally disconnected woman of our time. Today she is a dream of a dream of a dream. She has rights (to consume the lies of others), and she is oppressed (by the concept of freedom). These rights and this oppression amount to the theft of her birthright. She has lost control of her cunt.