The drama and story of a 4 year relationship, put to ambient sounds.

A love letter of sorts to our relationship. The good and the bad. From the very beginning, to our lowest point, through the slow and steady act of rebuilding it, and beyond into the future I envisioned for us. Edit: The more perspective I get, the more I realize how much she sucked me into something that was below me. So now I have to reframe this as something different. Edit: A Reframe. In the wake of a breakup last year I had the urge, as many of us do, to listen to lots of sad music. So, still thinking that she was deserving of my love and affection, I thought maybe I could do something a bit more thoughtful and dedicate it to her. Then the thought to use the five stages of grief, as an outline, came to me as I started collecting music. Fast forward another month, late summer 2021, I've almost completed my list of songs, which kept fluctuating between 50 and 80. In that circular process, I began to imagine clips from movies or poems that would be a great addition here and there. So I made notes. Other transitions in my life made it take until late fall before I could sit down and start to collect the music and edit it together. It was impossible to do without lots of thinking and playing around with various clips. While a lot of this is probably overdone, a lot of it was helpful in allowing me to let go, and even make some realizations. Whatever others may say, and no matter how trivial it may seem to those outside of a relationship, I maintain that it is no small thing to give one's heart to another. Yeah I've mostly gotten over things, yeah life goes on, but when, after years of denial, you finally allow yourself to commit to someone for life; your mind, heart, and soul is able to accept that, and be inspired by it. When it all evaporates, because she is unable to make responsible and moral decisions, it's a kick to the gut. Followed by a kick to the groin, when you realize how you made the decision to intertwine your life with hers.