10/5 9:20pm 500

9:26pm Fighting - a brawl including Natives and someone in fatigues. It's in a family home (like Archie's place in Crescent City)

10:56 dough

50

10/6 1:32am Someone calls me a "fucking manic." Before this, a section with swords and other old, ceremonial equipment kept by my dad- some complicated ritual thing involving moving this stuff around that I was involved in - can't recall the details but there was some protocol about determining whether certain things were necessary and it seems like a lot of this was (just saw blue dot on bed sheet over/above journal) - seems like a lot of this was me making certain decisions based on current circumstances - sense of tarot card with old man and two dogs (10 of pentacles). My dad would be like the old man on that Tarot card. There's also a sense of the swords cards like 7 of swords where people are moving swords around.

The "you fucking maniac" comment is separate from this dream and doesn't seem to be attached to anything specific.

2:01am Idea of Navy beans - and a food made from them like Navy beans and ham - sense of U.S. Senate Navy Beans (https://www.senate.gov/reference/reference_item/bean_soup.htm)

Idea of a tool - forceps or eyelash curler - white horse?

"Bitch, I'm Madonna" - sense of these lines and swords card that looks like an escape of some sort.

7:30 Six of Swords (the "escape" card)

7:54 discussion of colors (sky, sticks), line patterns on Rider Waite Tarot

3:19am Dream with Kurt Cobain again circa late 1980s - in this dream he has siblings who play a role in the dream somehow - one of the siblings might have hair like Chris and be a woman - maybe (Kurt) was going to be in a band with one of them or something. There was a lot in this dream and it's all blurred out now - it's like all of us being young, trying to get by, being in bands, dive bars, dangers of these places - seems like Chris might be related to Kurt - but it isn't Chris, exactly - or Kurt is related to someone else who is dangerous. At the end of this dream is the phrase "Big Blue Needles, Little Green Men" - it is something related to medicine. Something about spit, bile, etc. Maybe something about statues, a crucifix, or things like that. Like garden statues. Maybe another link to Tarot (note - I think card 14 - Temperance - is linked). I feel like "big blue needles, little green men" is about mind control through hospital systems directed at young men. Sense of the bus driver on Simpsons and Simpsons characters with blue.

Madonna - Like A Prayer

"Weird ass someone with their (brains?) splattered above" - like a song

(On TV - Trump returns to White House from Walter Reed Hospital) dream image of Trump opening a container (plastic with blue lid) very slowly only to find a single potato inside

This idea of being killed (by a firefighter?) - Idea of people (like doctors) pretending not to know something - a piece of information - but they actually know - and this too is linked to Kurt Cobain and his suicide/death.

A pregnant pig someone is going to kill - will they remove the pig fetuses first?

"Song linked to COVID"

Madonna - Like a Prayer

Idea of cutting something (or someone) in half "we should cut that" - idea of 10 barrel brewery and their cap (10)

Idea of cutting people

"This one should be obvious..." image from a social media account "this one should be obvious too, but it wasn't" (link to Kurt Cobain dream, link to blue hair, bus driver)

Note: The "Simpsons bus driver" is one of the original characters from 1990 and his name is "Otto Mann" (link to Ottoman, link to idea of Auto Man, and the name is German - I suspect this character might be linked to someone I knew in Germany)
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