Talking about December 17, 2019. I've tried to make this video so many times. ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tCYLfdFypJw

This is my version and performance of Talk Talk's (and later, Gwen Stefani's) song, "It's My Life". I have been waiting ten years to upload this and it has been in the background buzz of my life, collecting moments of affirmation of what this song meant to me and why it was so powerful. My intuition was always right even when, at times, I didn't want to believe, listening to this in March-April 2014 and knowing that in a blink of an eye something would be attempted to be stolen from me; a destiny, if you will. This song represents the Power within and the unleashed feminine power that has been oppressed and subverted here for so long. In this video, it is unconfined. Filmed in the lower level of OCAD in an empty dark studio with a spot light and rented equipment, I put this together with a vision on March 31st 2014 at 8:55pm. This footage was intended to be a backup behind the scenes shot. Behind the webcam is a Canon 5D camera (sought after at the time) and all the footage was lost when in 2015, in a chaotic time in my life, I dropped my backup drive and it had many unfinished music cover videos on it including this one...never posted and waiting to be gazed upon. The video was edited at school with Final Cut with a spotlight effect and the entire video looked SO PROFESSIONAL with the 5D footage. There were many shots in the stairwell also that I tried to perfect wearing those Demonia punk platform boots, crouching down and getting different angles I planned to edit into a full fledged video. There is also a video of me in a pink puffy dress wrestling a vacuum cleaner as a critique on women being domesticated and seen as incapable of forging their own path (etc.) and that was also gone. Among that is another music video I did in the snow (Alizee Gourmandises location that I filmed alone by a tree and have not seen since) with that same (returned) puffy pink dress that had something to do with Una and the Lion (2014) that was also gone and from the same month of March. There was so much interlaced during that time and it will be returned as of Now. The last time I tried to edit and post this was when I was sick with C-v-d in 2021 and survived, as I was getting better, the one song I thought to spring up and edit when I was fully better was this one, "It's my life, it never ends." But, finally getting to edit the last behind the scenes shots into this music video performance, ...into this version of "It's My Life" is a moment I've been waiting for! Here it is... ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jJxc6VguP5w

I am the student…and you are the teacher; I am going to fail this ‘video editing class’ we call “YouTube” so bad because I stole most of the footage from other youtube videos. Lol In all seriousness, this is my version of “Unusual You” by Britney Spears that I threw together quite faithfully so. Why did I do it? For fun, creativity and to suit my vision. Credit goes to ALL the creators of “Unusual You” and all the clips used. Can you guess what inspired this mélange? :) Lyrics: Nothin' about you is typical Nothin' about you's predictable You've got me all...twisted and confused (it's all new) Up 'til now I thought I knew love Nothin' to lose and it's damaged cuz Patterns will fall, as quick as I do (but now) Bridges are burning Baby I'm learning A new way of thinking now Love I can see Nothing will be Just like it was Is that because? B-aby you're so unusual Didn't anyone tell you, You're supposed to.. Break my heart, I expect you to So why haven't you? Maybe you're not even human cuz Only an angel can be so unusual A sweet surprise I can get used to Unusual You (Ahh, Ahh..) (Ahh, Ahh..) Been so many things when I was someone else Boxer in the ring, Trying to defend myself And the private eye knows what's going on That's long gone When I'm with you, I can just be myself You're always where.. you say.. you will be Shocking cuz I, never knew love like this Could exist Tables are turning My heart is soaring You'll never let me down Answer my call Here after all Never met anyone Like you.. B-aby you're so unusual Didn't anyone tell you You're supposed to Break my heart, I expect you to So why haven't you? Maybe you're not even human cuz Only an angel can be so unusal A sweet surprise I can get used to Unusual you (Ahh, Ahh..) (Ahh, Ahh..) Can't believe that I Almost didn't try When you called my name Now everything has changed.. B-aby you're so unusual Didn't anyone tell you, you're sposedta Break my heart, I expect you to So why haven't you? Maybe you're not even human cuz Only an angel can be so, unusual A sweet surprise I can get used to Unusual you... (Ahh, Ahh..) (Ahh, Ahh..) CLIPS (Credit goes to the owners!): Manta Ray's are Flat Sharks: https://youtu.be/OHlXGcawrHo London Eye Landmark 2019 - 4K Ultra HD https://youtu.be/yI98xvBJ0i4 Virtual Bonfire with Crackling Fire Sounds - https://youtu.be/bbLDfueL7eU Cozy Camp in Eerie Forest - https://youtu.be/LYF2VzCN0os Divergent - Tris & Four Holding Hands - https://youtu.be/_v8EqdQ9TkQ Learn About the Jaguar | Big Cat Week - https://youtu.be/tx6r7QX2iXk Mis-en-Scene: Eyeshadow: Too-Faced Sweet Dreams Palette in 'First Dance' Eyebrows: Benefit Gimme Brow Lips: Charlotte Tilbury in Gracefully Pink Eyeliner: Stila Stay all Day Micro Tip Foundation: Maybelline Dream Radiant Liquid in Porcelain Ivory 10 Nail polish: Gabriel Cosmetics Inc. in "Iceburg" Earrings: Hudson's Bay Costume Necklace: C&A Frankfurt, Germany Sweater: American Eagle Négligée: Victoria's Secret (as close as it gets) shorturl.at/giqsG ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s8I3EmD4m-o

Christmas without Mommy, December 24 2006, Part 1. Just another stop along the way and another side of me/life. There is no sound until 0:34 ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6z30woOQdLA