It took me a very long time before I finally dared, to talk about what is my biggest battle today. It's been nearly 3 years since I'm dealing with pain, every day. I'm just another suffering woman, among hundreds of thousands other people coping with physical pain. It took more than 2 years before I got a proper diagnosis for my chronic condition... I went to see countless doctors, therapists and healers: all in vain. I was feeling really powerless and lost. I didn't know what was wrong with me, I thought I will never find the real ROOT cause for my daily physical suffering. Until a few months ago. When an MRI clearly pointed out what the problem was: I have a deep endometriosis. This video does not talk about this particular disease, but rather about how I try to make my way out of pain and negative feelings. Although there really isn’t any miraculous healing solution, I can assure you there is one thing that is really working: your inner power. And your ability to heal your body. Because we all are able to impact our biology, to change our own cells, to make them heal. Let's give time to time, and let's heal patiently. One day at a time. One step at a time.♡ ❀ ?????????: https://www.instagram.com/verdant.vanille/ ♥ ???? ?? ??? ????? ?? ?? ????? ? ???????? ????. Without any obligation, and only if you wish to support my work, you can donate an amount of your choice. With all my heart, thank you. https://www.paypal.com/donate/?hosted_button_id=FVB76E62YVEMQ ♫ Music from https://www.epidemicsound.com/referral/9t2rsk (Get a month free with my referral code) ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qrmKDIpXJgQ

It was greatly important for me to share my story with vegetarianism with you. I was so scared to publish this, and if I'm being honest, I still am as I write. I'm aware of the huge controversy on the topic, I know what's at stake for our friends, the animals. But please, open your heart and consider hearing my choice. For now, that's what my body needs. It was beyond harsh to accept reintroducing fish into my life. And I still carry some amount of doubts and confusion in my mind. But deep inside, I know this was the best decision I could reach. For both my mental and physical health. I could have chosen to share more details about the how, the what and the why. But I needed this video to breath. To stay pure and open, instead of narrow minded. I have no idea for how long I'll be eating fish. For now, my brain and body are still showing great improvements each day. I will just keep on asking and listening to my core, to my heart, whether I should eat this form of life or not. Readjustments may or may not come. Only MY soul knows what is right to do, for me, and for the time being. I sincerely hope you can benefit, somehow, from watching this video. Whether you are a vegetarian or not at all, all I want is to inspire you to live a little closer to your heart. Thank you all so much for your support, this channel is growing faster than I could have ever imagined. I still don't realise how much has happened here in just a week. I'm reading every single comment and am doing my very best to answer each one of your beautiful souls. Sending you all my sincere love and light, Vanille ✦ ???? ? ??????? ??????? ???? ??: CURRENTLY FULLY BOOKED https://verdantvanille.com/energy-healing-verdant-vanille/ ❀ ?????????: https://www.instagram.com/verdant.vanille/ ♥ ???? ?? ??? ????? ?? ?? ????? ? ???????? ????. Without any obligation, and only if you wish to support my work, you can donate an amount of your choice. With all my heart, thank you. https://www.paypal.com/donate/?hosted_button_id=FVB76E62YVEMQ ♫ Music from https://www.epidemicsound.com/referral/9t2rsk (Get a month free with my referral code) ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UjHJSll3Y3I

Improving my material environment was never something I wanted to invest time and energy in. But since I moved in this very rustic and dark old barn, I've changed. I'm trying hard to become more patient in life, but once more, I set the timing bar way too high. I wasn't expecting this new challenge to actually heal my relationship with Time. ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0BJU7nfjik4

I've wanted this forever. Growing my roots somewhere, finding a home to build my inner sanctum. This day finally happened and I am out of words. I'm living in a mountain barn. ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4efk9aJ3vg8