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Lyrics:
before you leave
could you forget everything we had
and leave me here to sulk and be sad ?
when you leave
could you pack up everything you gave me?
leave me to be deaf and lonely
take my heart
even though you won't hold it dear
take my life
Just make me disappear
and I can't sleep with all these thoughts about you
you'll sleep soundly knowing I can't push through
you'll not hear from me again
before I grieve
could you forget that I'm going mad?
let me fade, forget all of the
bad moments shared
and although you might hate me, dear
Don't look back
you've got nothing more to fear
But I can't sleep with all these thoughts about you
you'll sleep soundly knowing I can't have you
you'll not hear from me again
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ypFOtZV_Q6U
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LYRICS:
stay or leave
but I'll always make it so complicated
inextricable thoughts
entangled by my own obsessive mind
but I don't believe
that I could make you happy
unless I become someone else
so what's the point in that?
fuck...
and I don't believe
I'm all that crafty
to transmute myself
so what the fuck is the point in that?
Well I'll tear myself apart
and pretend that I'll be done
convoluting all these thoughts
till I believe that you're the only one
honesty is only sometimes the best policy
when I'm not sure if I'm even honest with myself
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4jnIQcFeUXk
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Lyrics:
I should go to therapy
but I'm tired of waiting for results that I am meant to see
is it something with my chemistry or mentally?
either way the enemy is me especially when I must take these pills
to maintain a muddy facade of sanity
I smile and laugh but I am mortified
as I become the image of anxiety
leading to the point where I am drowning it in hennese,
desperately popping xans, combining it with ecstasy
when I was young there was a hunch that something's wrong with me
but I'm still not sure what's really going on
cause when I fall asleep
a plague of suffocating viscera invades my dreams
I'm so fucking tired of the pain
and I'm tired of this song
I know there's many others worse off
but on this earth I feel I don't belong and I've
Lost my mind
I won't kill myself
but that doesn't mean that I don't want to
scared to die but also to live
my trembling voice will not disappear
Lost my mind
scared to die but also to live
lost my mind
my trembling voice will not disappear
x2
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MGQ5FMWcdrQ
Bring Her Back To Me by Endo
Lyrics:
You won’t go far if you’re alone
Forget the time
From the night of wasted sins
Put your body on fire, let them go and take my hand
I’m not the one you’re chasing
I’m not the one you need
But you can stay here till the morning
You’ve got a lot to learn from me
I know the things you’re facing
I know how we both bleed
So you can stay here till the morning
Won’t you come and lay with me?
I’ve been waiting on you,
I’ve been waiting to know
What it feels like, to have you as my own
COPYRIGHT: Endo: 2020
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1k53_qMkMiM
This is a mini vlog outlining my beginner dread journey and how I will be taking care of them. completely unedited!
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MCJnlcowyns
On August 18th I was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes at 25 years old. This is something that runs in my family and was exacerbated by my unhealthy lifestyle. I have found this diagnosis extremely stressful and depressing.
Apart from this, I have been formally diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder which is comorbid with depression, multiple pain disorders, and a tic disorder.
I’m not sure why I have been given these things but they have prevented me from living for 4 years straight now. Unable to work because of the pain, unable to get off of disability benefits because medication is extremely expensive.
These past few years have broken me down to nothing and with this new diagnosis, I am not sure what to do anymore.
The one thing I know is that I need help. I can’t do this alone. I want my life to be one of success and happiness but I am barely hanging on at this point.
I want to heal myself and become the person I know I can be but I can’t do it without help which is why I’ve started a gofundme to support the things I need to do to get on track and solve these problems.
I am sick of being trapped in a failing body and I must heal, I must do what is necessary to continue living, I am tired of suffering
Goals:
Reverse Diabetes type 2 through nutrition, supplements and exercise. Nutrition and Supplements can be very expensive and while exercise is free, a gym membership or personal trainer would definitely help this process
Mental health: I would like to bring my mental health back to a point of balance. I have been spiraling and sitting in a dirty room for too long. It will likely require a lot of therapy and some changes in medications to get me to where I need to be.
Fixing my teeth: The root of a few of my pain issues are my teeth, I have too many teeth, they are crowded and I have what is called a deep bite. This would likely be one of the most expensive and arduous tasks on this list
Chiropractic care: The rest of my pain issues lie in my neck and spine.
Paying it forward: I know there are many people like me who are facing issues that they cannot do alone and once I am in a place where I am able to help, I will. Excesses of the money from this project will be used to help those in need who have been brought down by things out of their control.
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4zoRfXvQbOs
Hey guys, it's Endo here. In this video I talk about screaming, mouth shapes like tunnel throat, witch highs, mixed voice screams, alternative screams, and reiterating some of my theories on screaming. If they don't hurt, they are fine.
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AufqKJdmRyQ
Endo - Satisfied
Album: Bring Her Back To Me
Lyrics:
We’re crawling through this smog we breathe
Grown tired of what we believe
Calling to the ones we love
Suffocated in what we’ve become
Will we be satisfied?
Will someone look me in the eye?
For I need your light
Signals lost amongst the rain
We can’t help but feel the same
Forward to the static song
Hoping to fall to your arms
Will we be satisfied?
Will someone look me in the eye?
For I need your light
So we fall into place
Victims to our fate
Filling time with senseless waste
Never satisfied
We fall from grace
Will we be satisfied?
Will someone look me in the eye?
For I need your light
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QdV_jkfjQNY